I'm pretty sure I've never covered this one, but you can't just search for "XI" on here!
Wiki Wednesday #320 - phi_pea's XI
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A few hours after writing about not understanding why people diss Praat, I realized something.
I haven't been tested for dyslexia. My mom took me to a learning center in like 6th grade (before I became "gifted") and the tutor who tested me said that I did everything correctly and well... Just slowly.
Once I "became gifted", no one would have considered that I was dyslexic. The only time it was obvious something was wrong was when I had to draw little trees of numbers and long addition tables just to figure out what eight times seven was in the margins of my calculus tests.
But my working memory is just shot. It's like everyone else has a gigabyte of RAM and I have 128 kilobytes. If there's too much, stuff gets deleted. When I was organizing some mp3s recently, I had to constantly flip between the track listings and the folder I was reordering them in. I couldn't remember more than one track number and title at a time. I had to check for every single one.
Back in middle school, a teacher would point at us and say one or two. We would have to remember which one we were. I was nearly panicking trying to remember which number I was supposed to be, because if I didn't keep thinking it, I knew I'd forget. It didn't occur to me at all that normal people didn't feel like that.
That's how bad it is! So I can't hold more than a few phonemes in my brain at a time. I wouldn't be able to label without my insert labels from text files script because I would need to constantly pull up the text file with the phonemes or constantly listen to each syllable to remember what was supposed to go there without it. Neither of those are fun and both take a lot of time!
It's really great that I've been able to brute force my brain into being decent at things I naturally can't do. Just something like figuring out how to do long division by two in my head is so exciting and huge! (I still have to be staring at the number and pretending to write out the numbers with my finger, but it's something!) But I'm still very affected. No matter how many tricks and accommodations I find, there's still going to be those base issues that will never go away.
So yeah! The reason I use Praat is because my brain is basically broken and nothing else has such nice accommodations for my dyslexia. Have you ever seen how giant that font is?! The phonemes are just a blob to me in VLabeler. (That one may partially be a vision issue.)
Being dyslexic really, really stinks. I can do my best and get 80% of the way there, but it's always that 20% at the end that I'll never get to that really matters. But hey, I think I hide it well.
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